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This wasn't supposed to happen..... Not yet, Wednesday Harley was outside playing and running around being his goofy self, Thursday morning, I noticed he seemed aliitle off. Just acting weird. He took his morning treat before I left for work. I checked in on him thru out the day and the girls said he wouldn't go out and he had been laying on the bathroom floor for like two hours. When I got home and he did not get up to say hi, I knew something was wrong. Thought maybe he ate something or his arthritis was acting up. Took him to the vet that evening, an xray showed an enlarged spleen, bloodwork showed on the line of anemia, and some of his red cell counts were high. The vet said he was concerned and suggested I take him to the ER vet which had specialists. Once there, they did an ultrasound and I couldn't breath anymore. He had a mass on his spleen that was bleeding. Must of started the night before. They said they could stop the bleeding but it could start back up as soon as we walked out the door. Made the hardest decision of my life to not let him suffer, I said goodbye to my heart and soul. He laid on my lap with his head in my arms as I kept telling him I loved him so much and he was my best friend and gave him as many kisses as I could. Im numb and in shock. Its not fair. I can't go anywhere without seeing him or hearing him. I don't know what to do without him. The pain is unbearable. I miss you so much baby............
 

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I am so very sorry for your loss. We lost our boy suddenly to the same thing in the fall. RIP Harley. He sounds like a very special boy.
 

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So very sorry.....so many of our GSDs are lost to this......

It is never easy to let one go.....to have it be so unexpected tears our heart out with them....


He will always have a place in your heart....

Run free Harley :rip:



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I am so very sorry for your loss. :crying:

I can't even imagine.
 

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He would of turned 9 on Saturday...... I had a special day planned doing some of his favorite things, and now we can't do those things anymore........
 

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I am so very sorry. Nothing can ever take away that loving bond. RIP Harley
 

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I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet baby Harley. Words do so little .You are in my thoughts.
 

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I'm so very sorry for your loss. It is never easy and for it to happen so sudden makes it twice as hard. He will live on in your heart in the memories and love you have for him and then one day at the Rainbow Bridge you will reunite. Hugs.:crying:
 

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So very sorry.What a shock.
 

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I am so sorry :( RIP Harley
 

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Aww! So sorry for your loss. Run free Harley!
 

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I didn't want to read this. It is still so fresh what you describe that now I am starting to cry.
I can see in my mind the image you describe. I lost Gator just over 2 months ago. I was able to take him home as the recent bleed (found on ultra) was not active. We had another week, but there were signs of a couple more. One week to the day I had to do what was right for him. He wouldn't leave me on his own like so many here have done.


There is nothing that can be said to make you feel better. Just allow yourself to go through the stages of grief.


Do not beat yourself up. There was nothing you could do.


RIP beautiful Harley
 

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My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry for the loss of your special boy. Run free Harley, run free beautiful boy!
 

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Some day when you're feeling strong, do a search on the forum for "hemangiosarcoma" so that you can start to wrap your mind around it, and allow yourself to accept there truly was nothing anyone could have done for a different outcome. It might as well be called "GSD-cancer," and it's always terminal. I offer that because I remember second-guessing everything when we lost our first one to it -- should we have done different senior tests to have caught it early, how could the vet have missed it on her annual exam a few weeks earlier, what did we do that caused it, would a different vet have been able to treat it?....and as I read more, I realized it was probably just an inevitable outcome baked into her genetics. It allowed me some peace.

SO many of us have lost dogs to this wicked disease -- it's always sudden, jarring, and heart-wrenching. Always.

I'm so sorry for you loss. Know that we understand, because we've been there too. :(
 

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Thank you for all the kind words, I am still trying to wrap my brain around the whole thing. I can't believe my baby boy is gone. The pain is unbearable. The other week he got sprayed by a skunk and still had a slight smell. Yesterday I was driving, and all of a sudden I got a whiff of that smell, not one on the road but his smell. I bawled the rest of the way home. I don't know what to do with myself, he was always there. Always by my side, even at the end, he wouldn't leave me to go for his xray and ultrasound, I had to leave the room so he would go.
 
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