14.5 is tooo old!
We all love the senior GSDs. I used to say that "Seniors are no trouble." That was true when Annie was 9, 10 and 11. She was mellow and regal. The past three years have not been fun - 12, 13 and 14. It's been a downward spiral. The slow progression into degenerating. It has been difficult and sad.
Anyone else ever take care of their grandma? We took care of mine, the last 5 years of her life. The thing we prayed most for was that we would never have to put Grandma in a nursing home. If we had to do that, after taking care of her for so long, it would have been the ultimate defeat.
Well, Annie, has become Granny in a nursing home. At 14.5, there is no enjoyment for us and I can't imagine any for her. She has DM and sometimes just falls over. I often have to pick her up and stand her on her feet. She seems confused. She can lay, stand, or pace. She cannot sit. She just about always poops on the floor. Her vision and hearing are poor. She keeps us up at night with her pacing. I wake up to poop and come home to poop. We don't go on vacation. I lift her rear up the few steps to the front porch. I am always pulling, pushing, and lifting. I get frustrated and lose patience with her. I know it isn't her fault and I feel like pond scum.
On August 17th, I am having surgery. I absolutely cannot lift Annie. My recovery time is 12 weeks. Sure, other family members will do for her - but they aren't here. I am here. I am the primary care giver. Tomorrow, the vet is coming to put Annie to sleep. It is the equivalent of putting Grandma in a nursing home. I have failed. All I can give Annie now, is the chance to go in peace, at home. But I am heartbroken. I prayed so hard that I wouldn't have to do this. Tomorrow is going to be a really bad day.