I am so very sorry. I lost my puppy one year ago tomorrow. It was on Mother's Day last year, and it was so awful.
To help myself feel better, I went to the farm where his ashes were spread and saw that they had planted some new trees there. I felt a bit better, like his body was helping something new grow. I also have gone back and looked at all the pictures I had of him (all 758 in the five months I had him). I allowed myself to laugh at the memories and smile at how cute he was. He was so sweet, and he loved children. Talking with others about him made me feel better.
It sucks to lose a family pet, especially a German shepherd. They just love so much, and we love them. Again, I am very sorry. Try not to think about what you have lost and instead think about what a gift you have. Those memories will be with you forever. It is such a blessing to have them in our lives for even a day, and she knew how much she was loved. Please be kind to yourself and don't second-guess. It was not your fault.
Forrest 9/1/2016 - 5/14/2017 RIP
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