I wrote up Bull's story in this thread a few months ago when we knew the end was coming.
He bounced back after the incident that spurred that post.
All dogs are special in their own way, but this dog was one of those extra special ones. He was the dog no one wanted - in a no kill shelter for over 2 years adopted and returned 4 times. He was the untrainable dog. Flunked out of the shelter's prison program and I had trainers refund my purchase even after weeks of lessons. He never did learn to sit. He was the dog that didn't want anything to do with humans. It literally took years for him to solicit affection from me.
And yet he was probably one of the best dogs I ever had. Smart. Loyal. Protective. Gentle. Empathetic. Incredibly well behaved for a completely untrained dog. The most maternal male dog I've ever known. I'm not sure how I will raise another pup without him.
He passed away this morning around 9:00 am.
I actually had an appointment for the vet to come today at 2 to have him put down in home. Around 8:15 this morning I carried him outside. He was alert just very weak. He loved being outside and was actually an outside dog for many years by choice. I figured it would be his last chance to feel the sun, and breeze and enjoy all the sniffs. I wanted to let him have some time out before it got too hot.
I went back inside after a while and left him to enjoy his nap. I went out to bring him in around 9 - and he was gone. He must have just passed too, he was still very warm.
He ways laying on his stomach, back legs under him. Front paws crossed in a dignified manner. Head on the ground. The same way he has napped and laid down pretty much everyday for the last 13 years. His eyes were closed. You could have mistaken him for being asleep.
I sat with him for a while. Scratching his ear the way he liked until it started to get cold. Then I brought Mako out to say his goodbye. Mako started kicking Bull's face and pawing at him. Mako's been off his feed all week since Bull's health declined. He's also been very clingy to the old man. The next few days are going to be rough. Mako has slept cuddled with Bull every day since he was a 5lb pup.
I'm not sure how I feel about this yet. Kinda numb at the moment. I think I might start to feel a bit guilty that I wasn't with him at the moment it happened. But I think I'm also happy that he went on his own, no hated vet present, no emotional people around trying to keep it together, and outside with the sun on his back.