Not Sure What Happened?
It has been about seven weeks since I had euthanized my Sold Black GSD.
Confused, I'm not sure what happened. I have always believed in God, I even attended Sunday School.
My boy was only eight, good and healthy. He would rock it during ball play.
Barely showing his age.
It was the day before Thanksgiving and I needed to pick up a few things at the local grocery.
Rambo loved riding, it was his Truck.
We raced to the Truck and he beat me as usual, and off to the store we go.
He was sitting up on the passenger side looking straight ahead while I was petting his back.
I put on the Brakes to slow down to a Red Light and said "Hey Rambo we are at the Store"
He looked over at me when I heard this Extremely Loud Voice in my head Shout out ""Kill Me I Am Dying""
I almost hit the freaking Gas and rear ended the vehicle in front of me.
All these questions were running in my head. What? Where? How? Rambo buddy are you Ok?
On the way home I am now petting the heck out of Rambo.
We get in the house where I was feeling so Weird about this, so Strange, that I had to tell my wife what had happened.
Yes, she thought I was a little strange and said that Rambo is fine he has a lot of years left. (She actually works for a Veterinarian).
Thanksgiving came and went, everything with Rambo was fine.
The following Thursday he didn't want his Breakfast.
On Friday he ate a handful of Food, then had a hard time sleeping that night. He sleeps in our Bedroom. He was up and down several times that night.
Saturday the exact same Scenario.
Sunday night he would lay down, make a little Yelp, then get right back up.
On Monday am he was gurgling in his breathing and had lost his balance getting up to walk once.
At this point I am crying my eyes out telling my Wife he's dying, he's dying. I'm walking in circles crying and saying to mysel Wtf, Wtf, is happening? Less than ten days after that ride in the Truck.
My Wife brought him directly to her Practice that Monday morning and did X-rays and Blood work.
Three hours later my Wife phones crying. You need to come here to say your good-byes.
His Blood work came back positive for Cancer. X-rays showed a Tumor had looked to had burst around his spleen.
Talk about Strange...
What happened? Where did that voice come from that day? I have no Answers..Guilt, etc.