Lost my sweet Jersey Girl
I haven't been on this forum in a very long time. So long I had to redo my membership as I couldn't remember my username and password. I lost my sweet sweet beautiful Jersey girl on Saturday night to a tragedy, she was 9 years old and still full of life and energy like she was a puppy. I wasn't ready for her to go yet, Im still not ready for her to be gone. She wandered off from home, I would assume chasing deer, as that is the only reason she would wonder and go so far, and she was found a mile and half from home on a busy street gone. When I saw her all i could do was lay on her and tell her how sorry i was. Sorry for not making sure she came back in with the kids as they were going in and out, sorry if something scared her that night that made her run, sorry this happened to her, sorry I didn't look sooner for her and notice she was gone. So many thoughts run through my head and I know I can't change the past. She was my first german shepherd ever and when she died, she took a piece of me with her that I don't think i will ever get back. My husband and I are distraught and my 2 older boys miss her too. Im trying to figure a way to get the way she looked that night out of my head and remember how she loved to play and run in the yard with my other shepherd, Dozer. But everytime I picture her I see that horrible night, and every day I go to work I drive past that horrible spot where it happened. Does any of this every get easier? Do those thoughts ever go away? Today started out better than the rest have but as the day goes on I feel my self slipping back to how I've felt the last few days.