Oct 17, 2005 - Nov 2, 2013
Tanner was my best friend. He was always by my side and was always watching me. From the moment he was a pup to his last breath he was my best friend. He had such gentle eyes and not a mean bone in his body. Ugh.
I cry every single day and am a wreck. Guilt, anger, regret, sadness, etc. Today is my first day alone at home on my day off. So hard.
Last Saturday I came home from work early and went downstairs to play with my dogs for a few before I did laundry. Tanner stopped playing and looked at me funny before heading upstairs. A few seconds later I heard a thud and went running up to find him collapsed on the floor with labored breathing. His breathing stopped and at that time I did a few chest compressions and breathed through his nose which did revive him. Oh he had such a confused look as he came to.
. I picked him up like his 92lbs were 1lb and rushed him out the door. Wife jumped in the back of the SUV with him forgetting even her shoes. We rushed him to the vet where he died about 20 min later with us by his side.
Picked up his cremains yesterday which were in a beautiful wooden box with his name engraved on it. I talked to the vet and he fully believes it had to do with his heart giving out for whatever reason. I miss him so much. I feel he was robbed of life and we of him.
I do have another chow mix dog who I rescued off the streets a couple years after I got tanner. I love him a ton but there was something about Tanner, the way he looked and paid attention to me. I love burying my face into his forehead and taking in a deep breath, smelling the GSD in him. Loved it. I nuzzled him every single day. He knew he was loved. I just miss him dearly and cry every day, multiple times a day.
There is nothing like a shep.