I understand how your feeling. I lost my mom just over a year ago. It was not what we expected the outcome to be and I still feel a sense of loss and shock. Not to long ago we lost my mom's dog. Both to cancer. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my mom. I write to her, talk to her, listen to voice mails, and look at pictures. At first doing all those things made me cry. Now I cry every now and then, but mostly I feel comfort, especially when I hear her voice. My dogs have been a saving grace. They went through the whole ordeal with me. My hours were off, I spent lots of time away from home. I did get to bring each one to see my mom, because my dogs loved my mom. They seemed to understand and offered comfort to her and to me. After she died I brought some of her clothes to my house. I put them in the dog crate, since it wasn't being used and I needed to make room. My oldest dog that adored my mom, managed to get a shirt out and I found her laying on it when I came home.
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