I sit and try to pen put the words, words that i want your heart to hear.
They say memories last a lifetime, but i only wanted you, even for just a day more.
In life i loved you with all my heart and in death i loved you still.
I asked myself if this pain will fade, your loss was hard to bear.
Especially thinking how it was not whole.
You are my first pup, my dream come true and you will always be.
I still remember the first day we met, I had to pick you up at an airport 5 hours away from my home,
i was so anxious and excited, a lot of thought rushed thru my mind but i know its you when my eyes met yours.
I knew you were the one, one who would always be on my side and one that i can always trust.
You never once failed me. You were smart , you mastered all the basic commands i thought.
You made me proud, you made me happy. You knew your toilet manners , never once i have to reprimand you.
You never liked the leash, but you didn't need one as you will always be my side, when i call out your name.
You would come in front of me, when i pick up the collar, i can see the grin on your face as i put it on, to you it was like an Olympic medal.
You never liked to be alone, you would whimper and get excicted when i pick up the car keys, because you know its time for an adventure round.
I finished studying overseas barely a year ago, working in a family business of plantation in Indonesia.
Its a place filled with greeneries, hills and forests. A place you loved the most.
It feel so empty now as you left too soon leaving me alone, no more the days of the gleaming eyes looking at me waiting for an adventure.
The simplest things would create and emotional trigger and it shows just how much impact you had in my life now that you're gone.
Never once were you sick until barely a week ago when i discovered brownish discharge in your pee,
i never thought it was bad as you still heartily enjoy your meal, still i dont want to take chances and took you up to the nearest vet.
You were diagnosed with a minor infection and was given jabs and medications.
Things started to look well, you looked lively and healthy, going for our routine walk with so much energy.
Until last sunday evening, when tou lied down on the floor looking very lethargic unable to get u back on his feet no matter how much i called you.
I knew this was bad and prepared a blanket for you to lie on, stroking your head gently, hoping it was just a scare.
You puked out the meal you had heartily enjoy earlier and signs of your legs getting stiff.
I kept calling out your name, hoping that you would reply. Only for you to signal your love by giving me two loud groans before you left.
I am sorry i didnt do enough, i knew you had much more in your life.
If i were able to rewind time, i would rather not have you so that you can live a longer life.
I am sorry that if it was too long of a read, but i just felt that i need to pen it out.
I thought it will make me feel better, but now i wonder how am i going to go through this.
This is a video i made for the tribute of my young dog, KINO
In loving memory of my German Shepherd, KINO. - YouTube