I feel your pain, but in a little different way. Grizzly and Brezzy have been gone for over 18 years and I still miss those 2. I can see them just as clearly as if I saw them a hour ago. They were a matted pair and both were very loving dogs. 4 years ago I had to put Beno down, we got him to protect our children as they grew up and boy he did his job well. At 130 pounds he was very intimidating and he just loved his boys. He was one big dog. Now I have Tony and it was a great decision to get him. Personality plus and picked out by the boys.