A year ago today we lost Kayle...
We lost our heartdog Kayle a year ago today to HS after a short, two week battle, during which time she fought to survive with everything she had.
We brought Kayle, a WGSD, home from the breeder when she was 7 weeks old. From day one with us, she was oh so stubborn, sassy, headstrong, hyper, spirited, and devoted to us. She ALWAYS had the last word about everything. She never met a stranger, was loving and devoted to us, and lived her life with a passion that I both envy and strive to emulate every day. Kayle hated to sleep, as she was always afraid she was going to miss something. No matter what was going on, she was in the middle of it. I have never seen a dog fight sleep like she did!
Through her life, she battled with SIBO and other intestinal woes, and terrible allergies. Like a trooper, she was cheerfully in and out of the vets office, happily took her medicine, and never once complained or made an aggressive or fearful move to anyone in the process.
Kayle happily adjusted to our burdgeoning pack, as Lady (GSD) came home to be her sister, and the kitties were rescued one by one. She loved to ride, LOVED to camp, and traveled from state to state with us with her usual gusto. She loved to explore the new campgrounds, new hiking trails, new cities, and new rest stops along the way. Her home was where we were...nothing else mattered to her.
She loved to swim in the creek, hated bathing that involved soap, loved apples and carrots, sat in the car back on her hiney with her "penguin feet" poking out, snarfed at stinky farts, squeeked about anything, squeeked about everything, loved to eat poop (yuck), barked at the UPS man because it scared him, loved her papaw, gave us poopy-sugars, enjoyed having her teeth brushed, was allergic to dust mites, loved to play on the beach, loved to play frisbee, loved the desert, hated cactus needles, munched her stuffed animals like she was biting fleas, liked to tear the felt off of tennis balls, loved to have her hiney scratched, used her "mutt butt" to her advantage, went to work with me, loved to herd the wheelbarrel, thought skunks were just more kitties that smelled bad, shed so much I thought she would go bald, and was always there at my side...
Time kept ticking into the future. Our life was whole with Kayle and our other critters. Then came that unexpected, fateful day in April when a terrible stomach ache turned out to be cancer, and surgery bought us two more weeks with her. That next fateful day in April, two weeks after the first one, she woke up sick, could not lie flat because she could not breathe very well, and told me in her Kayle way that it was time. When xrays revealed that the cancer had rapidly spread to her lungs and liver, we did the kind thing for Kayle that day because it was the right thing to do, but the hardest thing I have ever done. We brought her home with us, and we buried her late that cold night under the light of the sliver of the moon, in our field next to Pedro, my FIL's horse. My heart still aches with the loss.
I learned alot from Kayle....I am more patient, more playful, less concerned about muddy paw prints on the floor, more able to see the fun in the little things, enjoy sticking my head out the car window to catch the breeze, love the smell of frito-feet and GSD ears, 'snarf' at stinky smells, and am more willing to open my heart to that same pain I know will eventually come because of the living that goes along with the pain.
I will never love another the same as I loved Kayle, but because of her, I do love another as much. I often look at Riley and wonder how much fun he and Kayle would have had playing together. And I thank Kayle for my love of the GSD breed. I try to live my life the way she lived hers...devoted to my loved ones, and passionately enjoying every moment. Its hard sometimes, but her memory stands as a reminder to live my life full blast with the same passion that drove her to enjoy every moment of hers.
Riley-1 y/o GSD
The Kitty Committee- Samson, Jacobean, Booger-beans, Abby (aka Poo-pees), Tom-Tom Tail-sucker, Niblet, Sheeba, and the Zach-man (aka Boo-bits).
At the bridge: Kayle-My heartdog, Lady bug, and Starr-meat.