Dharma saved my life but not in the way you would expect. Last summer I got fired from my job. The reason was stupid and basically it came down to that they just didn't like me and I was on probation so they canned me. It was the most humiliating, devastating, frightening experience of my life. I didn't have much in savings and what I did have went quick and I was having trouble finding another job. One day I sat in my garage, smoked a cigarette and just started bawling. Dharma sat in front of me and looked at me. I started to seriously contemplate suicide. And as a nurse I would not screw it up. I was going to turn my car on and just sit in the garage, just go to sleep. Then I wouldn't have to worry about losing my house, trying to find another job, how I was going to pay the electric bill, none of it. About that time Dharma leaned her face into mine and started to lick my face and tears. She then laid her head on my lap and looked up at me into my eyes like she was saying "don't cry mom, I love you". At that point, all I could think was that if I died, who would take care of her? Would she end up scared and alone in a shelter. How long before someone found me? How long would she be alone with my body, trying to wake me up, hungry and worried because I wouldn't get up. I realized then that no matter how bad things were I had to hang in there for her. She needed me and she counted on me to take care of her and love her and nobody could do it as good as I can. So I held on.
And you know what, I finally got a job and it is a better job that pays a whole lot more. I am gone more but at least I don't have to worry about how I am going to make ends meet each paycheck now and there is extra money for toys and treats for my girl.
So yeah, she saved my life, even if it wasn't intentional.
-Dharma Van Fluffy Pants GSD
-Pippa Von Neurotic Butt- GSD
-Tessa- 11yo GSD- Waiting at the Bridge. RIP sweet girl.
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