I hope that in your heart you feel you will meet her again...or that she will somehow return to you in some other form...?
I pray you find solace and strength through those days when you miss her by remembering how lucky she was to have you and you her.
I have never lost a fur kid (yet)...I dread it. Reading posts like these sometimes jolts me but I do find a profound beauty in them. So thank you for telling us about your experiences.