|10-17-2014 04:28 PM|
|wyoung2153||Wow Sabis mom.. I'm so sorry for your loss.. This has me in tears right now.. thankfully I'm the only one in my office right now... my heart goes out to you and I know Sabi would want you to be honoring her like this.. thank you for sharing and I will conitnue to pray for you. People say it gets easier but really I think we just find way to deal with it better. If that makes sense. Hugs to you, friend.|
|10-17-2014 02:12 PM|
I did not know it was a funeral chant. How beautiful. That just somehow makes it more special.
|10-17-2014 10:41 AM|
I love this poem. It is an American Indian funeral chant. I once had a recording of it being sung at a funeral but I can't find it. It was beautiful as is the wording.
|10-13-2014 02:11 PM|
I love that poem. I had someone send it to me when Sabs first died. And I am so sorry for your loss, I have seen a few bad ends. If you need to talk please pm me.
I do not think I am really suicidal, I am just struggling with a way to survive without her. She was not a pet, she was my partner for many years. Spending long, lonely nights alone in the truck with her, knowing that she was my only back up, and having her save my life, built a bond like no other. She earned the right to be a patrol dog by saving me, untrained and young. She was my world. I have tried desperately to find another dog. It just is not meant to be. But I still have Shadow, who is very hard to be sad around, and Bud who misses Sabi himself and is no longer the same vibrant dog he was.
I thank you for your concern but please don't worry. I have battled depression and anxiety for years and will absolutely see a dr if needed.
|10-13-2014 01:54 PM|
|BensLife||Wow, after reading this it was so hard to hold back the tears. I have never experienced what you have and I'm not looking forward to it either. I'm not sure how I'm going to prepare myself emotionally or physically when that day comes. My boy is only 8 months and reading this makes me want to go home and hug him. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope you find it in yourself to get a new puppy and give it the love and care Sabi would want you to do!|
|10-13-2014 12:53 PM|
Sabis Mom -- Your post indicates a struggle with suicidal thoughts. Please start seeing a professional about this. Regardless of how special your Sabis is, this needs attention.
Consider honoring Sabis by finding another dog. Sabis would be pleased.
|10-13-2014 12:46 PM|
Sabis Mom, I am so sad right now after reading your post, as other's have stated, you have a way with words and your tributes to Sabi were very heart wrenching. I could feel your pain jump right off the pages at me and sent me back two years ago this month when I had to put down my Lab of almost 13 years. We had to let him go just 2 months shy of his 13th birthday. I miss him terribly still, I know your pain. What made his loss even more unbearable was the way he was euthanized, but I will not get into that now.
This is one of my favorite poems that did help me out in sad times. I thought of it as I read your post.
I AM NOT THERE
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there, I did not die.
|10-10-2014 11:52 AM|
|JoeyG||I'm sorry for your loss. I can relate to how you feel. Mine past 8 years ago and I missed him so much I would swear I would hear him even years later. Even now I still have dreams with him every blue moon. There is a special connection between us and our beloved friends. Max also passed after 12 years of being together. It will eventually get to the point where it won't hurt as bad but simply make you smile. It'll be a great memory that you shared part of your life with such a wonderful friend. Mine is still with me everyday, I have a tattoo of him on my left forearm. Keep your head up and allow yourself to feel sad if you need to, they gave us so much and it seems so understandable that would miss them for so long. Just remember to keep going forward as well, it's what they would expect us to do. I hope you have a nice day.|
|10-10-2014 06:56 AM|
It's been a year. 365 days of aching, wrenching pain. Your leash still waits by the door, your bed is still next to mine. I was proud of myself today. I have not yet given in to the urge to join you. I am impressed.
Everyone told me this would get easier, it hasn't. They said to put your bed away, I tried. It felt wrong, so I put it back. I still miss you with every breath I take.
But I felt you today, brushing against my legs. I heard you snort when I walked into the door, I felt your breath on my face as I slept this morning. 12 years and 7 months you stood at my side. Laughed with me, cried with me. We were partners, friends to the end. We took on the world and kicked some bad guy butt. You were the best, right to the end.
I love you still, I always will. You were the best friend a woman could have. My beautiful warrior. Play amongst the stars my girl, until we walk together again.
|09-21-2014 01:37 AM|
I too feel your pain. I* lost my Rebel 7 months ago. I told the vet that I love all my dogs, and they all have a piece of my heart. But Rebel had my heart and soul. The vet just looked and nodded.
Rebel was born on Halloween, a litter of 13. Every year around Halloween we would buy him 5-6 of those cheap plastic pumpkins for his birthday. He so loved playing with them. Today I was in Walmart, and there they were, those pumpkins. Tears welled up, and then I smiled, just thinking about him being so goofy with the pumpkins. I guess you could call it a bitter sweet moment.
I hope you can find those bitter sweet moments. It hurts, ****, it hurts so bad.
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