|Today 02:40 PM|
One year ago today I watched you try to drag yourself after me and my heart broke. I knew our time together was over. You looked so scared and sad. I remember wrapping my arms around you and telling you what a great dog you were.
We had gone to the petstore to get food and you tried so hard to greet all the people. Your beautiful tail waved gently as you soaked up the compliments and attention. I lifted you into the car and got a dirty look and a kiss for my efforts. You so hated fuss.
On the way home we stopped at Timmies for a coffee and a Timbit. You barked at the cashier for being slow and grinned when she jumped. You always did love to watch people jump.
I decided it was such a beautiful day that we would take a stroll by the church. You always loved it there. When you were young we used the construction site for a running track, 1.2 km around the outer edge, and you never forgot. As the years went by all the staff had learned to look for you, sometimes they still stop me to chat about you.
I knew I had made a mistake when I lifted you out of the car and you ran off across the lawn. You never did like to stroll. You made it about 50 yards and I could see your legs shaking. I called you back but it was to late. When your back legs gave out, I watched in agony as you desperately tried to drag yourself to me. I ran to you, calling for you to stop and stay. The look on your face broke my heart and by the time I reached you tears were streaming down my face. I remember sitting in the wet grass cradling you in my arms, telling you what a wonderful dog you were. I carried you, all 85 lbs of you, back to the car. You looked so sad. You never let me down my girl. Ever. I hope you know that. You were my best friend, my biggest fan, my joy, my heart, my life.
I waited 6 more weeks to take you in, so my mom could say goodbye, but we never went to the church again.
I went there the night you died, and sat on your rock staring at the stars. One bright one kept winking at me and on that night I watched 13 stars fall. Was it you, telling me not to cry? Every time I see a falling star I think of you, and smile. I wish this would get easier.
|05-10-2014 01:44 PM|
I lost my boy on 8/30/2013 and every month from the day he got sick to the day he passed it affects me. There are random times it hits me also.
I'm sorry for your loss. (hugs)
|05-10-2014 01:43 PM|
|Brando & Julietta's Dad||Sorry for your loss. Sabi sounds like a very special dog that will always be in your heart. Wishing you beautiful memories of your sweet Sabi.|
|05-10-2014 01:30 PM|
|pyratemom||You don't have to apologize for still loving her. I still get teary eyed over Pyrate when I look at his pictures on the wall and it has been a couple years almost. The hurt doesn't stop but you find a way to live with it. I just count on that day when I go to the Rainbow Bridge and all my fur kids are there. I know it will be a crowd of them and we will play again.|
|05-10-2014 01:26 PM|
Thank you all. I know we all go through this and Shepherdmom I know you just did very recently. I appreciate you all taking the time to let me tell you about Sabi, she was one in a million.
I keep waiting for it to stop hurting and I sometimes find it easier to cope if I can write. Please forgive me if I ramble.
|05-10-2014 11:42 AM|
|lovemygirl||Beautifully expressed Your Sabi is still with you... you just can't see her is all. And with a soul to soul connection, there is no need to see each other with your eyes.|
|05-10-2014 10:19 AM|
|petite||Sabi is still watching over you. I'm so sorry for your loss.|
|05-10-2014 08:23 AM|
Your words have opened a very old but tender scar on my own heart and soul. Please believe me, there are others who feel what you feel, suffer what you suffer.
|05-10-2014 08:22 AM|
|Loneforce||I am sorry for your loss I am sure Sabi will be with you forever.|
|05-10-2014 07:14 AM|
|shepherdmom||I'm so sorry for your loss.|
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