I made the heartbreaking decision to euthanize Luther on July 23, after aggression towards strangers turned into aggression towards house members and pets. It was a life long struggle of dealing with aggression, training, stress colitis, severe chronic diarrhea, the prospect of lifelong medications, etc...
But when does the pain ever get better? Each day I feel a little better, but then something will trigger a memory and I'll just break down. I miss him so much. And although I feel like I made the right decision most
of the time, I can't tell you how many times I regret it as well. Did I REALLY make the right decision? Or did I just give up for selfish reasons, sick of dealing with such a problem dog? It doesn't help that in just a few days it would be his 4th birthday.
For all his problems, all I can think about is my sweet little dog that had such a personality. I loved him so much, and just miss him a ton. And although I've put a deposit down on a puppy for next spring (because I knew I wouldn't be ready any sooner then that for another dog), I feel like everyone else has moved on and I'm the only one stuck in this world of sadness, missing my poor little Lu-dog.
Happy Birthday, Luther. I love you and miss you