My beautiful boy Storm was taken from me on tuesday, he went to the vet to be castrated and suffered a cardiac arrest as they brought him round from the operation. My heart is totally broken and I'm lost without him.
It took me months to actually get the courage to take him to have the op in the first place and now I'm feeling so guilty that I took him, I know that it had to be done as he had a retained testicle but that doesn't help with my guilt for what has happened.
He was a very nervous boy and so I was allowed to sit with him while the sedative took effect, stroking him and telling him how much I loved him and that I would see him very soon. If only I knew that would be the last time I could cuddle him I would never of let him go, he was only 11months old and should of had so much more time here with me.
I know he is at peace now and is with my last girl waiting at rainbow bridge, but the pain in my heart is so bad. Love you boy....sleep well until we meet again xx
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Wolfy is absolutely right!
Don't blame yourself. You love him dearly and you were doing what was best for him. He must have had a problem with this heart that you had no idea about, so this could have happened at any time.
He knew you loved him.
I am so very sorry.