How do you guys deal with the feelings of guilt, anger, sadness, and such?
The past few days have been so hard on me. I have been crying nonstop. I feel so guilty that I didn't know that she was suffering from such a terrible disease. I feel guilty because I SHOULD have taken her to the neurologist way before it got to this point...maybe then she could have been saved...
I feel guilty over stupid stuff, when I would get mad because she was biting me...or getting distracted outside...I feel like the biggest jerk ever..
I guess, I mean, I am having an exceptionally hard time with dealing with her passing, more so than I usually do when my pets pass. Although, being such an extreme animal lover, this type of stuff is never easy.
I am just so overwhelmed with sadness that her life was cut SO short...she barely even scratched the surface of what her life could have been...I feel like she was ripped away from me..
I also feel like I gave up on her...Should I have tried the Prednisone and Omeprazole? What if it would have made her better? Maybe her condition wasnt so severe, I am not certain because I could not afford an MRI and did not want to put her through that. Ugh..this just sucks so bad...
I hope she knows I loved her with everything I had, and I tried so soooo hard to make her better..
She was the very best thing that came into my life. I miss my babygirl so much.