I am so sorry for your loss. My Arwen was also nine. She had no symptoms really. That morning, she did not eat all of her food, but she went running and playing in the field like my puppy. When I came home from the shepherd meeting, she did not greet me at the gate of her kennel. I went in and she was lying on her cot, dead. I wailed into to the night. Arwen was my heart-dog, my special, special girl. And losing her was like losing a part of myself. I certainly understand the feeling of being broken in half. All I can say is that your grief is normal. I think it is a testament to how special the bond was between you and your dog.
It has been two years this month since Arwen passed away. I don't know that there are that many days that go by that I do not think about her for one reason or another. Today my contractor mentioned her, said she did not like him. I would have chewed his head off if he said anything negative about her. It is not a raw gaping wound now though.
It is the one thing about our dogs that is unbearable, that they only live so long. I am really sorry.
Jenna, RN CGC & Babs, CD RA CGC HIC
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