My heart dog, Scrappy (non GSD)

[arycrest]

Scrappy had such an adorable face, she was a real cutie.

I'm sorry you lost her.

Rest in Peace Scrappy!!!

[Ilovealldogs]

Thanks for all the kind words. I just can't stop crying and it gets harder and harder. I have joined the pet loss group and hope that it will help. I know I did what was best for her, but I am still at a loss.

I had trimmed some of her fur a few weeks ago (when she was feeling good) and it was still laying in the grass. I collected a bunch of it and put it in a bag. I rub it every now and then because it's the closest thing to petting her as I can get. I actually have found myself walking around the house collecting her hairs too! That is how much I grieve.

I thought I had been preparing myself since I have known that she has had cancer for a long time, but apparently I had not. I think it is partly because she had another surgery 2-3 weeks ago and my vet said that she looked good and said she might have another six months. I put that thought into my head, so I have been completely and utterly traumatized because I thought I had more time. She went from having good days to one day having a very, very bad day. It was almost like she was having a seizure. She had extremely limited use of any of her legs, so I would have to carry her down the steps to potty. She could barely stand and would eventually collapse. I would carry her back into the house and lay her on her new doggie bed. At this point her legs would get stiff and she would cry/howl/whimper for close to a minute and then she would seem to recover. There weren't any tremors, but she started to do this every time after she ate (on the last day she ate nothing) and when I would carry her in. It was about the saddest thing that I had ever seen.

[Ilovealldogs]

More pics of Scrappy.


Mom, I'm really not having fun anymore and I'm trying to tell you.



Mom, I am sleeping but still in pain and you haven't been listening...



To my dearest Scrappy,

Boy, has mom loved you for a long time. It took me a few days to realize that you weren't having fun anymore and for that I am sorry. Please forgive me as I needed a few days to stop my denial that you might just have a few more good days left. How selfish of me, but I finally did what was best for you. As I sit here in absolute misery without you and tears rolling down my face, know that I loved you more than anything and that I will always miss you. Allow me time to grieve and maybe at some point heal although I feel like that is miles away from this point. Thank you for being such a loyal, intelligent, caring, beautiful dog and may you run pain-free at the Bridge. You have another buddy, Chloe, that I hope won't be there anytime soon, but I know it will be coming. At nearly 11.5 years old, she is going to be making the journey sooner than I'd like to admit. When she comes, please greet her and tell her that mommy will be there one day and that none of us will experience any pain ever again. I love you my darling dog.

Love,
The luckiest mom in the world to have loved and cared for you

[ThreeDogs]

I am so very sorry for your loss.

What a lovely tribute, he was so very lucky to be surrounded by such love.

RIP Scrappy

[Avamom]

I am so sorry for your loss Jennifer....Scrappy was so well loved and it shows, you were both lucky to have each other.

Thank you for sharing the pictures with us!

[barbprzyby]

I am sorry for your loss Jennifer.
Rest in peace Scrappy

[Kurys Mom]

Many for you. Scrappy knows that you did the most selfless thing for her and that was to relieve her pain. It is the hardest thing to have to do but the most profound. It takes selfless love to make those decisions..........It's the all about them and not about us. They are given to us for a short time, they weave their love around our hearts and then they are gone. They teach us much if we just watch and listen.

May you find some comfort in the days ahead, I'm very sorry for your loss.

[Elmo's Mom]

Jennifer, that was a beautiful tribute.

I have never lost a dog, but my heart hurts for your loss. I was so happy a few weeks ago when you told me about Scrappy's surgery. Things were looking brighter. So, I can't even imagine how shocked you were that she took a turn for the worse so quickly. But, she is out of pain now. She is on the other side feeling like a healthy young pup. Rest in Peace Scrappy.

As others have suggested, take things one moment at a time. That is all you can do.

[Ilovealldogs]

I still need everyone's prayers. I am still devastated and can barely function- just doing what is necessary and little else. I am so lost without my heart dog. She was such a joy to my life and I miss her so much.

[Ilovealldogs]

I'm doing a little better today. The one week milestone was pretty hard. I still can't believe that it has happened. I kept thinking that I would have more time with her.... I miss her....