I'm alive! (If anyone has wondered, though I'm sure not, since most of you are my fb friends). I've been feeling largely anti-social, which is saying something since the majority of my social contact is via the internet. Anywho...
I've been in that "dark scary place" and combined with a lupus flare-up I've barely gotten out of bed. I want the sun to come out! The 40-degrees/dark blanket of clouds/drizzle that we've had basically constantly is NOT helping.
Things are getting tricky at work. Positions are drying up right and left and I don't think my contract is going to be renewed...at this rate, they're basically dropping me down to part time. I haven't gotten any call backs (or returned calls) about the educational positions I applied for. I am the queen of regret right now, since I have a PhD and can't even find any positions requiring a Master's degree. It's shocking to think that just a couple of years ago this field was very lucrative and oceanographers were in high demand. Now, the same positions that paid good money pay salaries you can barely life off of, and student loan debt is crippling. I wish I'd stayed in the medical field. I'm contemplating going back to get my certification in radiation therapy or something... I'd love to go to PA school, but it's cost prohibitive, and many of my requisite classes are "expired". How did I get myself into this mess? At this point, we're looking at moving back to CT so Jereme can take his business back over... he made good money and could support both of us, but it's akin to going to prison for me. I don't know what's going to happen with the store idea my dad and I wanted to do... maybe that's an option, if we're in CT and there's less risk.
Echo seems to be doing fine. His HR is still high, but his vet doesn't think it's a problem, since the beat is normal, there's no murmur or anything and it hasn't caused him any problems yet. I guess some dogs, like some people, have a higher than normal resting HR. They did tests to look at kidney function, but it'll be a few days before we hear anything. All in all, they don't seem too concerned.
I keep dreaming of a nice warm, sunny beach.