The one thing I am very greatful for is that I let him convince me to go down to my dads and my grandmas for Christmas. I didn't really want to go but he asked and I couldn't turn him down. We spent the 23rd and christmas eve with family and then I took him over to his dads mothers house. His dad got to spend his birthday and a few days after Christmas with him.
<sigh> I get to this point and my mind just blanks out. Thank you for your good thoughts. It means a lot to me. Maybe in time I can write some more. I just keep thinking it can't be real.