Thank You all very much!
I am completely lost without my boy. I knew it was his time the week he passed, so I mad an appointment for Saturday that week, but he passed in my arms on Friday that week. That whole month I was trying to talk my dad into it was his time, but he didnt want to face it. Smokey was going downhil refuseing to eat anything I tried to give him. I got him cremated and got him a beautiful urn. This whole thing is almost impossible for me to handle. We kept him overnight that night and I slept next to him holding his paw. We took him to the vet the next morning and the vet and my dad picked him up so I could pull the dog bed out from under him and they tipped his head and blood poured out of his mouth. I am so haunted by that image. He tried so hard to fight passing, but I told him it was okay to go and he had fought long enough. I told him that whole week that it was okay for him to go. The day he went I layed down by him and talked to him for hours. I actually had to leave twice that day I hugged him and promised I would be back and he waited for me. Its helped a little, I dont know how much, but trying to keep myself busy have had some moments I was seriously thinking about going to be with him. I have had him my whole life basically and I just feel empty. I miss him so much it kills me!
I love my two boys Smokey and Chief.
Smokey is that one of a kind dog. I
also really love my 4 precious guinea pigs.