Last week, I lost an aged horse. She had years of health issues and we did all we could for her. On Sunday she stopped eating. Tuesday I started making arrangements to have her PTS at my place. My husband arrived home from work before I did, and she had already passed.
Although she passed on her own terms, I feel like I shouldn't have waited. It was my responsibility to help her along. I feel rotten that she died alone. I can only hope she wasn't in pain. I searched her stall for any signs of a struggle. I studied her dead body looking for signs that she went peacefully or in pain. I feel like I didn't live up to my end of the deal.
I said that when she stopped eating she was ready. Why I waited three days, I just don't know. I suppose I was hoping she'd change her mind.
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