Having Second Thoughts on Returning...
So my male had his birthday last month, and it marks our year together. I was there when he was born, I did some of his Biosensor tasks... all his puppy baths, his vaccinations. We've been through months and months of pano, gastric surgery, sleepless nights watching him on IV, shows, training, long drives in the car; we've been through a lot.
Due to his health problems, I removed him from my breeding program. That's not what I'm having second thoughts on. I was all set to rehome him to a pet home, but his breeder blocked me and insisted that he be returned to her. We had a tousle about that and I finally just threw up my hands and said OK. It isn't ideal; she's only one person and the dogs don't have a 'family' atmosphere. My boy is used to being part of a family. I don't think he'll have a problem making the transition, but the home I had picked out had 400 acres, kids, other dogs, horses etc.
Anyway, the closer the date comes to the 'hand over' the more I'm having all these crazy thoughts of just keeping him as a pet as I'm rather attached. I need to have folks either talk some sense into me or... well, not. I already have two pet dogs that I can't breed/show (one isn't even a GSD) and right now I have five total. I don't have acreage or anything, or kennels. They all live in my home and are housedogs. I am financially able to care for five dogs (barely), and the longer I have five the easier it feels for me to adjust to the extra. I thought four residents was my limit, but my boy gets along really well with everybody so he's 'invisible' in the sense that I never have to worry about him.
This will be my first 'washed' dog, and I'm not used to it. I know the intelligent thing to do is to let him go and look to the future. I also know that the sentimental dog-lover in me is screaming "but he's your big fluffy mandog! How could you?!"
So somebody talk sense to me. I know I won't use him, nor do I need a pair of testicles in my home with intact females.