Feeling very bad
Last Tuesday I rushed my 14 year old female Nikki to the emergency vet. She did not exhibit too many symptoms but she had bloat. By the time we got there 45 min after the first symptoms it was to late and I had to put her down as she began to go into shock and her stomach had already turned. I am completely devastated and having a very, very tough time dealing with the loss- so unexpected.
She was incredibley healthy and strong. Going there I thought she would make it.
I also have a two year old male who requires a lot of attention. I am feeling guilty because I had to give the puppy most of the attention- not all but a lot. Nikki did not require or want too much attention, very independant, but now that she is gone I feel bad, like I did not give her enough attention. The poor thing was by my side for 14 years and I miss her greatly. Part of the problem I am going through is that this was unexpected and I did not have much time(5 minutes) to say goodbye. I put down a male two and a half years a go and I was able to spend an entire day with him before hand.
Has anyone ever gone through anything like this?