[Sunflowers]

Yeah, we get it that you come from another culture.
But if you don't want them 100%, you should not have them.
As hard as you hear it is, it is even harder, especially the first few years. At least, it was for me.

Do not have kids for someone else.
And especially, take care of the depression before you even think of bringing someone into the world that will feed off your body, energy, emotions, time, and life.

As hard as a dog is to raise, and as much self-doubt you may experience when making decisions that affect it, a child is a thousand times that.