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We have practiced strong pack leadership. We've had as many as five rescues at one time and never a problem like this. We've used NILIF for weeks on end with Buddy, to no avail. He would come right back trying to start a fight with Griff, even with immediate and consistent corrections. We even had him on tranquilizers for a short while. We've had extensive medical testing and analysis performed on him. He's had obedience training and proved to be exceptionally smart. The fastest learner I've ever dealt with. We've played with him and walked him until he was ready to drop, but still the aggression continued.

We sought out behaviorists, chased and read every bit of info that we could find, talked to trainers. With his bite history (bitten at least three different people at different times), adoption agencies won't touch him because of liability issues. We've literally spent thousands of dollars and untold hours on this dog. But most importantly, we took Buddy into our hearts. We loved him dearly. He truly was our Buddy. We poured 15 months of our hearts and souls into Buddy. But he was like an autistic child that just couldn't control certain aspects of his behavior, but with the capability to inflict much more grievous damage than a child. He is one of the 10%, or whatever percentage, that just can not be reached and cured.

Because of all of this, we reached the horrible decision that the best thing to do was to put him to sleep. Yesterday morning we took him for a walk in one of his favorite places, let him piddle and pot at his own pace. Then we took him to the vet. He left this life cradled in our arms, his beautiful fur sprinkled with our tears.

Our souls are grieving. There is a huge hole in our hearts. We've cried enough tears to float a boat. We pray for Buddy that he can be healed, freed from fear and mental issues, can be truly and completely happy, and that he will be waiting for us when we get to the next life.